lostandconfusedbutok

I came on today and hit the random deviation button a few times, and found some of the  usual tripe. Then maybe the fifth or sixth random deviation I stopped on an image of my favourite flower. This was taken by a long time friend that I have hurt unfairly. I can only hope for forgiveness some day. :thumb103605758: if the image fails to display go here Lilly Bokeh by fluffyvolkswagen. There is a place for cowards like me.

Ok so i spoke to my estranged father for the first time in over a year after a family dispute bla bla bla....... Anyway the man made a peace offering in the form of a van. I just colected it after the normal fighting with the engine after 6 months of just sitting there. but its perfectly road legal and it wors just fine. this is clearly something i can do. I am aplying for a licence and will be giving the van a full on overhaul(pimping) but not the way they do on telly or the way they do on the street. this will be a mode of transport for me so i dont want to look like a toy racer attracting the attention of the law. i am putting the first

Ok so i went away again. Traveling on your own makes you think and thus my mind drifted to hairdressing but more about that later. I spent a week in sligo. I got to meet a wonderfull laydee who I have wanted to visit in such a long time. I'm truthfully not very good at these things so i think i messed up. I'm trying so hard. I think too hard. I have no skills anymore i'm just a lump of useless flesh. I want to be fit, healthy and happy again. I have alot of trouble with motivation these days. 1 tiny step away from ebay working for me hopefully i will have it finalied today. then i can submit stuff to sell. I have prooved that a fone is not